my catch 22

‘I came down here to tell you, it rains in heaven all day long’

-3

this weekend sucked. was gonna do a lot of work but ended up doing so little. i couldn’t get much done at home for the past few days so i decided to go into school today and work there. ended up not doing anything there either. why? cuz i started thinking about things i shouldnt be thinking about. man i hate this emotional crap. everywhere u go, it follows u. and there’s stupid catch 22 if you’re still in school. u wanna get work done so u try to be alone, but emotional crap prevents u from thinking/focusing on your work. in order to free your mind from emotional crap, u go out/hang out with friends and focus on other stuff. but since you’re out and with other people, you can’t get any work done either. so you’re screwed either way. why do i always get screwed?

visited a certain fellowship at a certain church this weekend, and that sucked too. i walk in and i feel like i’ve just entered a frat house. except there’s no alcohol or mooning. i dunno why, but it felt like a big party to me. it was too charismatic, too young, too ‘cool’, it almost felt…superficial. i did talk to a few people and they were alrite. i’m sure they do great things as a church, but individually, i have to question whether people really go there for God, or if they go for friends and fun and events. the way the place was presented, kinda felt like a big marketing scheme, and maybe they’re not even aware of it themselves. granted, that type of setting would suit some people, especially young adults, so if it’s working for them then good for them. but personally i wasn’t too comfortable in that environment. like when the guy introduced the speaker for an upcoming series, he sounded like a DJ. ‘the next series is by justin ho…..er’body say hooooo!!!! (hooooooo!!!!), hoooooo!!!! (hoooooo!!!!!).’ i was quite turned off by that…

~ by jontyc on July 21, 2008.