my shorts are wet

watched chronicles of narnia prince caspian…..wasn’t as good as the first one. the love scene ruined it for me. it was so unnecessary…kinda tacky….. it was like they had nothing better to do, so included it anyway.

getting more and more into apologetics. kinda messed up though, i spend hours reading about biology, archaeology, astronomy that point to a creator, yet i find it hard to just sit in silence and read the bible for half hour a day. why is that? why’s it so hard to read the bible? maybe cuz i’ve read it before so i rather read something else.

i think most folks experience an ebb and flow pattern of spirituality. i’ve been ebb-ing for quite a while but i think im starting to come out of that. there was one day when i was having dinner and a few minutes into eating i realised i haven’t given thanks yet…that was quite a wakeup moment.

was on the bus to school and i reminisced back in high school one afternoon when i was walking with my friends when a couple of guys came up to us and wanted to start something. apparently one of my friends pissed off some guy a while ago. a fight broke out. all my friends jumped in to protect my other friend but i didnt really move. i dont remember why i froze. maybe its cuz i was at the back and didnt see a fight broke out. or maybe i saw it but was so shocked i didnt know how to react. or maybe i didnt think they were being serious. i felt bad about it though for a long time. what was going on in my head? why didnt i have the instinctive reaction of protecting my friend? i knew i wasnt paralysed by fear because i felt pretty calm the whole time. that incident really stuck to my mind, cuz thats not the guy i wanna be. i hope it never happens again but if it does, i hope i’ll react differently.

how do you know when to hang on and when to give up on something?

everytime i wear shorts, the sky turns grey. my shorts have been weather-changing. the first time i wore shorts this year was the first time we got heavy rain. the 2nd time i wore shorts i walked outta my house with sunny skies. i get to central and it’s heavy rain. last week i decided to put on shorts again. i remember looking at the sky and it looked like it was gonna be a beautiful hot summer day. again when i got to central, stormy weather. this time there was lightning and thunder too. so in conclusion, if it’s too hot, gimme a call.

~ by jontyc on June 13, 2008.